I Almost Didn’t

For the last month I've been feverishly working on ... what do I even call this really? A brand? My passion project? My calling! This has been with me for over a decade. I've launched it at least five times, only to then let it fall to the wayside. It never quite felt right. Never looked exactly how I felt it should. Wasn't completely thought out.

But I truly believe that the reason it's been on my heart and mind for over a decade, is because it IS my purpose. It's literally something I am meant to do. And that is why I've felt so strongly about it. Even when I've stepped away from it, it was always right there. In life events. In music. In successes. In failures. I've always felt the need to share my experiences with others. Because I personally know how realizing that someone else has gone through it, somehow gave me courage to move through.

So yea. I've been plotting, planning, redoing, on and on. Brand ✅ Website ✅ Socials ✅ Content ✅ I really dove in, even amid work stress, life stress and ... school?! That is another post. . My greatest accomplishment ~ I recorded the first episode of the podcast. WHAT?! It's feeling really real!

Last night (well this morning), I went to bed excited about LAUNCH DAY! April 5, 2026. Easter! (Didn't realize it when I set it). Slept deeeeep! (Thank you black out curtains.). Wake up. LET'S GOOOOOO. Then it happened.

Graphics look a lil off. Podcast sounds ... well. Not clean. Kinda like I'm reading (and am). The thoughts started. "This isn't it!"... "It's not perfect!"... "I'm bout to end up on someones 'what not to do' post"... "Ain't nobody trying to hear this"... and on and on and on. Just that quick. All the work, the joy I felt when creating, the sunshine I felt when walking in my passion ~ just dimmed!

But you know what. NO. I'm moving this forward. There is NO WAY this has been on my heart for so long if it wasn't what God intended for me to do. And perfection is a lie! Like a friend said 'every podcaster hates the first episode'. And if no one is feeling it, it would hurt, but honestly ~ this is for me!

So yea. This almost didn't happen. I almost didn't move forward with what I feel such passion about. But here I am. DOING IT!

And so are you. Whatever it is you've been sitting on ~ DO IT! Do it imperfectly. Do it scared. Do it anyway. You'll figure it out! And I'm here to walk with you 🦋 in the same way you are here showing up for me. Let's gooooooooo!